Lately I’ve been allowing my stubborn nature to get the best of me. I’ve accepted to fall and rejected all efforts to stand tall again. Even though I can see the signs and Gods push for me to go the right way I still disobey going the way I find sweeter but more stressful. Going the wrong way seems to be my Tranquillity. Pain, Stress, Unhappiness and Misunderstanding seems to be my place of peace.

-This Pic Best Describes This Time In My Life-

Lately I’ve been allowing my stubborn nature to get the best of me. I’ve accepted to fall and rejected all efforts to stand tall again. Even though I can see the signs and Gods push for me to go the right way I still disobey going the way I find sweeter but more stressful. Going the wrong way seems to be my Tranquillity. Pain, Stress, Unhappiness and Misunderstanding seems to be my place of peace.

-This Pic Best Describes This Time In My Life-

Does me smiling freak you out? I don’t usually smile but when I do this happens…😕😓😆 (Don’t mind the growing images) #Selfie #Smiles #PiiE #Myself #Boredom #SmilingExperimentation #PhotoGrid #Cheese

Does me smiling freak you out? I don’t usually smile but when I do this happens…😕😓😆 (Don’t mind the growing images) #Selfie #Smiles #PiiE #Myself #Boredom #SmilingExperimentation #PhotoGrid #Cheese

Portmarnock beach was super packed. #Beach #Portmarnock #NoFilter #Ireland #HeatWave

Portmarnock beach was super packed. #Beach #Portmarnock #NoFilter #Ireland #HeatWave

Flaws.

I love flaws.

You don’t have to like my flaws, just know that I love yours.

Your flaws make you unique, it is your individuality. You don’t have to defend your individuality to me.

I didn’t learn to accept flaws, I didn’t need to learn. I wasn’t taught how to accept flaws. I didn’t need to be taught. You’re not taught how to love, you just know.

I love flaws. I love your flaws.

Do you think I asked for this?

Do you think I asked for this?

Do you think I want this?
Asking makes me vulnerable and I run away from every opportunity of that occuring.

Do you think that I asked for this?

Each day I run to a material thing for closure, for protection and clarity.
Normal people get intoxicated on illegal substances but I get intoxicated on having this legal material thing at arms length.

Do you think I asked for this?

Even as I write this it’s that material thing that I will run to, just to wipe away my silent tears and remove the frustration and disgust from my face.

Do you think I asked for this?

Sometimes I can’t leave the house because I’m bound to this material thing. Always feeling trapped.
Each day I face the same embarrassment never looking forward to tomorrow.

Do you think I asked for this?

My nights battling my day all because material thing interferes.
Thrist battling hydration all because material thing interferes.
Pain forever triumphant over pleasure all because material thing interferes.

Do you think I asked for this?

To be used by this alone.
To be moved by this alone.
To be loved by this alone.

Do you think I asked for this?

I want to give up because this material thing has said theres no way out.
I can’t continue being strong for me because I can’t imagine a time where this material thing did not control me.

I’ve learned a controlled person is never a strong person. I cry because I’m weak, vulnerable and controlled.

I never asked for this.

Dublin City Center. #Ireland #Dublin #TownCenter #BeautifulDay #BusStop #DameStreet #CollegeGreen

Dublin City Center. #Ireland #Dublin #TownCenter #BeautifulDay #BusStop #DameStreet #CollegeGreen